Cruisin’ for a Bruisin’

I found these at the Goodwill today and suddenly I had the whole nursery planned. I’m not pregnant. Not sure it will/can happen. But how perfect would this be?! 

Grayish walls with an accent wall painted a soft yellow. On the yellow wall these signs, big stars painted in matching colors and those star-wall-lamps from IKEA, all collaged above the crib,  or changing table/dresser duo. Probably the dresser. 

And then I had to shake my head. Tell myself to wait. Those pictures will hide behind the closed door of the empty room until there is a positive pregnancy test. 

Even then I know nothing is guaranteed until the second trimester, well, really birth. 

It got real, real fast.  Doesn’t help I struggle with depression. The spiral down happens in an instant. As if infertility isn’t hard enough! This journey is full of unknowns and difficulties. I hope I’m strong enough and that my meds hold me together and don’t harm a future baby. 

Fingers crossed and accepting baby dust. 

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7 thoughts on “Cruisin’ for a Bruisin’

  1. Those are cute!! I have depression also and take antidepressants. My doctor said that if I got pregnant, he would actually want me to stay on the meds. That was kind of a relief for me, but I also understand the concern. Sending positive thoughts and baby dust!

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    • Depression scares me. It really does. So many what if’s once I am a mother. What if I feel to crappy to function? What if I can’t handle it? I’ll never really know until it’s here, but it’s a reality when your brain goes haywire occasionally! Love you, my friend.

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